(Warning: I'll be getting transparent with you guys about recent events. It's nothing bad, the complete opposite actually! And I really want to share with my lovely watchers what's going on so as to give you an idea of what's coming up in the next few months!)
--------------------------------------------Before I even get to anything, I have 150 watchers! How did that happen? Thank you all so much, you may not realize it but you are an inspiration and a motivation for me to do better and better. So cheers to you!
Whoa what a journal? This is something new, like wow. But seriously guys, this is the most I've been consistently inactive since I joined dA! It's a little difficult keeping in touch with any of you, it's been a hectic but favorable summer. So I'll tell you what has happened just recently and get into other details.
First off, I just got back from my last summer Bible Camp as a high school student! It was very bittersweet, and a lot was expected out of it. I've realized a lot of stuff that has encouraged me for this next college season. For a while I've struggled with anxiety about a lot of things, including college and the future. Right now, I'm still not working and I've been praying for an opportunity for a few months now. I've sent in apps to Hobby Lobby, Cold Stone Creamery, Plato's Closet, Family Video, etc. and most of them replied and all of them saying "WE DON'T WANT YOU. PEACE." (That would be the 'hannah spangler' translation of the proper emails I've received) Which that happens in the middle of the Summer, it's understandable. But dang, this girl just wants a job!
Anyway, so I came into camp expecting
to get some sort of job opportunity. I've been confessing for the past 2 weeks that I would have favor with my employers, that they would see me and want me on their team. So I knew, once I came to Camp that God had it all under control. But i did have those moments of doubt like, "Am I expecting too much?" But then I realized that God is way bigger than any circumstance that I come across. It's easy to forget that... So I kept my faith up. And guess what? Sure enough, I wake up Wednesday morning and I got an email. I got an email from the manager of Cold Stone Creamery in the area that said they invite me to an audition for a couple positions that are open!! I almost couldn't believe it!!
Right now it's like I already have the job. So I'm preparing myself for the audition coming next week and praying that I'll say the right things and kick unemployment in the face!
So God has helped me with my anxiety when it comes to my job and my future, because He gave me peace with where I was heading. I have at least 4 verses in the Bible that tell me to not be afraid and that I am strong. God is just so good, guys. And art is definitely the path chosen for me and I plan to stick with it. I can't see myself doing anything else! And even though it's a pretty rough path to take, what God leads me to He will lead me through. (And everybody said amen coughcough)
All this came at just the right time because I've been struggling with anxiety my whole life, feeling that I was stupid and unwanted because of my background and my interests. Just seeing me, that high school freshmen 4 years ago, makes me think what I could be now if it weren't for Jesus. Now I'm confident in who I am and where I'm headed, and it's a great feeling.
Now I want to thank you all for still watching me while I post, like, 1 piece of art a month! I just started to get back in the groove of writing The Limitless Crew script and I'm a little over halfway done. I'm so excited for the process of creating the concepts! I believe the story will be just as magical as the environment itself, I have so many things I want to share with you! But I want to take it nice and slow and really think about TLC and how to make it emotionally captivating. But ya'll know what I'm talking about, cuz I have the smartest and coolest watchers ever. (And everybody said amen coughcough)
By the way, if you want to talk, or say hi, or want advice, please talk to me! I may have a hard to initiating conversations over the internet, but I can certainly keep one going! I promise I don't bite, all i want is friends, man, That's all i want.
STARTING MY FIRST COMMUNITY COLLEGE CLASSES SEPTEMBER 2ND BABY. HEYO.
can you feel my excitement across the world wide web? Just breathe it in. take it all in. cuz it's happening people.
Okay that's it. Love you guys!
- Bang Bang Spangs
P.S. If you've read this far, I want you to tell me the most memorable thing about any of your Summer vacations. It can be serious, it can be goofy. It's your game!